Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Rediscovering

I am still surprised by the time that passes so fast. It’s May already. Studying time is coming to an end. I have so many projects to do and so little time. I try to enjoy every second and don’t let myself frustrated by the lack of time, but enjoy what life gives me, enjoy great moments with people around me. On the 1st of May I went out with my friends from NG, it was such a beautiful day. Everyone was saying before “It will rain”, well someone up there loves us and gave us a really sunny and warm day. We were all surprised how warm and beautiful it was, what a great time we had admiring the nature, enjoying the fresh air and just relaxing, playing volleyball and talking.

Great time continued, on the 3rd I attended the weeding of two friends, Cristina and Ionel. I think it was the greatest weeding I have ever been to, different than others, really beautiful and fun. I still can not believe they got married. It was like yesterday when I attended their engagement party. Again time passes so fast. I am really happy for them and I wish them all the happiness that can be in this world because they really deserve it, they are great people. One more plus to their weeding was seeing some old friend, a friend from US came, Sarah which I haven't seen or spoke with since 2004. I never thought I will ever see her again but one can never know. The world is small.

I discovered there are also great persons at my working place. Our CEO decided he wants to know us better so he organizes meetings with the departments and the branches. On the 4th it was HRs turn together with the guys form IT and the internal auditor. After a meeting in the conference room where we shared our experience (realizing we have a lot of things in common – one being the fact that most of us studied something else than what we like or than what we do now) we went to dinner. We had so much fun, we laugh a lot, talking about different topics – not work related. I never knew how much fun I can have with my colleagues. Hope there will be some more meeting of this kind.

Relaxing is nice but you can not do that every day, you also need to work. I was really tired lately and I realized why, is not because of my schedule, of the work in general, is because of lack of passion. I started analyzing which are the things that motivate me, where is my passion in what I do. If I have no passion than the work won’t reach the expected results and I will be frustrated. Rediscovering passion at work of in doing projects for the university is taking some time, but I try to compensate that with doing things that I like, that give me energy, like driving my car, talking to people, delivering a training on HR, getting involved in a project at work – not HR related, attending some interesting meetings at work and at NG, reading.

If there is passion then there are results. I am trying to rediscover my passion daily because I want results in all the areas of my life.

Saturday, May 02, 2009

April - mixture of feelings

April was for me again a mixture of feelings from bad one to great ones. There are so many things that happened, some brought joy and happiness others frustration, disappointment.
The month started with 2 more AIESEC-ers that joined the company I work in. The feeling of having them in the company was great, as well as attending the trainings they had. (I learned some things on finance J finally it’s not Chinese for me any more – at least some things). The same day they arrived, I went to Oradea for some recruitment interviews. I realized I haven’t been to Oradea before – or if I had it was when I was very little and I don’t remember anything. Anyway the town is really nice – at least what I’ve managed to see and they have great ice-cream J. The way was long and challenging but fun. Another fun thing was going with my new colleague from work bowling, even if I didn’t win this time t least I managed to beat the girls J, the guys maybe next time J
Another thing that happened in April was making my frustration list – which I’ve mentioned in my last post – frustrations about my job, my life, school and others. After making this list a friend of mine challenged me to find solutions for my frustrations and to make a list with the things that make me happy. At first I though I could get through those issues and everything was ok but then the frustrations came back. It’s really hard sometimes to get over some things when you see you have no control over them.
The next days were full with shopping – which I hate - (at the end it turned out to be ok and I found the things I was looking for, but still shopping is not my favorite thing to do) and preparations for Easter. This year Easter was for me a great celebration, actually more than just a celebration, I understood more the significance of this day and I experienced its true meaning. All this combined with some free time, visits to some relatives made everything more special.
Of course things can not always go in the right direction. There are always people around you who disappoint you, who don’t appreciate your work, who don’t care about you, about your feelings, who don’t take your ideas into consideration, and the list could go on. All this causes more pain if those persons are your friends, or you thought they were your friends. Anyway maybe it’s time to reanalyze the list with my true friends.
In the end I decided not to let myself influenced by this things and enjoy a meaningful conversation with a colleague from work spending together a beautiful day in the park; enjoy Alumni Night, seeing old friends and people from AIESEC, realizing that I really miss this organization and being there daily; having some interesting conversations with some friends in the last week.
The good part of this month was that when I don’t stress myself to much good things happen, things that I am surprised by because I have no influence over. Someone, up there, really, really, loves me and surprises me by making my dreams come true.