You can not have it all

I consider myself a very realistic person, sometimes too realistic. Maybe I should be more optimist, but I’m not, especially when all the things around me indicate some things just won’t happen the way I want.

There are things in life which I can influence, for which I know I have to work hard and by doing this I will reach my final objectives. It feels good knowing you just have to do your part and things will come out the way you want, or at least close to that way. If they won’t you’ll have at least the satisfaction that you did your best.

Unfortunately there are things in life which we can not influence. One of them is the way people think and feel. It’s ok to have people in your life that don’t see things the way you see them, in the end we are all different. The bad thing about this is when their ideas, plans or things they do influence my life. At this point I get really frustrated that no matter how much I explain they just don’t agree with I say. They have their own image about life and they don’t agree with anything else that is not in that image. I so hate these situations. I’m so tired of explaining and understanding others.

I need to get over things. In the end I can not have all the things the way I want.

Changes

At the beginning of this year I made again my wish list for 2010. I didn’t write big dreams just things that I would like to experience this year. Everything seemed ok, I was on the right track but suddenly the situation has changed. Sometimes you are forced by different circumstances to go in a totally different direction. Maybe it’s for the best, maybe for the worst. I still don’t know. The main point is that I had to reconsider what I want this year and change the list.

Now I have to find the strength and work hard to reach my objectives from that list, at least the ones that I can control.