April - mixture of feelings

April was for me again a mixture of feelings from bad one to great ones. There are so many things that happened, some brought joy and happiness others frustration, disappointment.
The month started with 2 more AIESEC-ers that joined the company I work in. The feeling of having them in the company was great, as well as attending the trainings they had. (I learned some things on finance J finally it’s not Chinese for me any more – at least some things). The same day they arrived, I went to Oradea for some recruitment interviews. I realized I haven’t been to Oradea before – or if I had it was when I was very little and I don’t remember anything. Anyway the town is really nice – at least what I’ve managed to see and they have great ice-cream J. The way was long and challenging but fun. Another fun thing was going with my new colleague from work bowling, even if I didn’t win this time t least I managed to beat the girls J, the guys maybe next time J
Another thing that happened in April was making my frustration list – which I’ve mentioned in my last post – frustrations about my job, my life, school and others. After making this list a friend of mine challenged me to find solutions for my frustrations and to make a list with the things that make me happy. At first I though I could get through those issues and everything was ok but then the frustrations came back. It’s really hard sometimes to get over some things when you see you have no control over them.
The next days were full with shopping – which I hate - (at the end it turned out to be ok and I found the things I was looking for, but still shopping is not my favorite thing to do) and preparations for Easter. This year Easter was for me a great celebration, actually more than just a celebration, I understood more the significance of this day and I experienced its true meaning. All this combined with some free time, visits to some relatives made everything more special.
Of course things can not always go in the right direction. There are always people around you who disappoint you, who don’t appreciate your work, who don’t care about you, about your feelings, who don’t take your ideas into consideration, and the list could go on. All this causes more pain if those persons are your friends, or you thought they were your friends. Anyway maybe it’s time to reanalyze the list with my true friends.
In the end I decided not to let myself influenced by this things and enjoy a meaningful conversation with a colleague from work spending together a beautiful day in the park; enjoy Alumni Night, seeing old friends and people from AIESEC, realizing that I really miss this organization and being there daily; having some interesting conversations with some friends in the last week.
The good part of this month was that when I don’t stress myself to much good things happen, things that I am surprised by because I have no influence over. Someone, up there, really, really, loves me and surprises me by making my dreams come true.